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20 November 2008 @ 06:01 pm
Goodnight and Go (chapter four)  
Title: Goodnight and Go
Written By: Perriwynkkle
Rating: PG-15
Pairing: JaeMin
Length: 4/5, chapter four
Disclaimer: DBSK is owned by SM Entertainment...so not to be sueing plz.


Say goodnight and go.
Why'd you have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you.
Oh must you make me love so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well.
Say goodnight and go.

Goodnight and Go - Imogen Heap

A/N: Ah, finally this chapter is done! It felt like with school work piling up as high as my ceiling, my computer f-ing up all over the place, and my japanese girls flipping out, I was never going to get any of my beloved writing done. But loe-and-behold, I finished this chapter, and I couldn't be any more happier about it. Btw, just incase anyone cares (which you probably don't), if you would like to talk with me personally or would like to know more about me as a person, you can go ahead a friend me here on LJ. My personal blog is updated every few days...sometimes everyday if I have the time. Sooooo, if you would like to, feel free, I love to meet new people! ^-^ Okay, well let's get this show on the road eh?

As the fans cheered and the set lights dimmed, you took a long sigh of relief. You figured you had never been this happy about a show ending before. The spotlight was what you lived for, what kept you sane in an insane and improper way…yet today it didn’t have the desired sparkling effect.
It hadn’t left you coming down off a wonderful, shining and glitter filled high. It had been the opposite, leaving you drained and feeling like a waste of human flesh.
“It was so great to see you guys again; I hope to see you back here soon.” The pretty hostess said as she smiled and clacked away on bright red high heels.
You glared at her perky back-side as she walked under the nearest glowing exit sign, all too much in a hurry to care about her fans who might have come to see her.
“Well what are we supposed to do now Yunho?” you heard Yoochun ask of the group leader as they all pushed up from their chairs on stage.
“We need to get changed and head home…we are lucky today, we finished nice and early.” He replied, his voice choppy from constant strain, “Let’s thank the crew and go home.”

“I claim shotgun.” Junsu shouted playfully as they neared the large white van which would transport them home.
“You always get shotgun.” you groaned while pulling your jacket closer around your shivering body, “What makes this time so fucking special that you have to announce it?”
Junsu’s face crinkled in annoyance, “I guess there was no reason.”
A chuckle escaped from between Changmin’s lips, his footfalls close behind yours, “Another brilliant repartee from Junsu.”
“Why is it me you all must constantly pick on?” Junsu asked, his face a brilliant red from the gusts of autumn wind whipping around their bundled bodies.
There was no response, as really there was no need for one, so you climbed happily into the van’s warm confines.
Sitting down in the far back, like you usually did, you watched out of the corner of your eye as Changmin slipped into the seat next to yours, his face pulled tight in concentration.
You shifted slightly buckling yourself into the seat, your knuckles brushing softly against Changmin’s jean covered thighs.
“Sorry.” You mumbled, as he seemed to cringe at your touch.
He nodded; his face still puckered in what you felt must be disgust.
Sucking in a breath, you tried your hardest to cover the sadness overcoming your face with the puffy sleeves of your winter coat. To wipe the thought of his angered face from the back of your mind.
The world seemed to be moving too fast, and you were too slow to catch up. He had moved on and forgotten all that had happened, and here you were, still chained to the ever colorful memories like a slave to a master.
You knew it was wrong to keep reminding yourself of what could have been, because you knew it was never going to happen.
But the hurt that came with the memories, also led you into the pleasure of your fantasies.
As much as it bruised your broken heart, the fantasies patched it all back up again.
The fantasies gave you hope.
Hope that maybe someday, he wouldn’t be cringing at your touch or trying to create as much room between you as a small car seat would allow.
He had been avoiding you like you had gay cooties, afraid he was going to catch them like the common cold.
It angered and infuriated you, made the air around you and Changmin thick and stifled with unfelt emotion. With every beat of your broken heart you wanted to keep confessing to him over and over your feelings for him.
You wanted to put it on repeat in his head just so he would know how you felt.
So he would know how his face was all you saw at night, his voice was all you heard in your headphones or how you craved for his comforting touch.

All you wanted was for him to know how naked he made you feel.

“Hey Jae, you’ve been looking kind of pale lately.” Yunho whispered as he hovered over your computer desk, watching as your fingers played with random buttons on your keyboard.
“How is that any different than what I look like normally?” you asked, your eyes following up his face to stare dutifully into his.
“Okay…you look paler than usual.” He rephrased, “Is anything wrong?”
He shook your large computer chair until you felt like you might have to vomit up the confession.
You sighed as a sign for him to stop, you probably did look like crap, though you knew only Yunho was brave enough to admit it to you.
“Sure, yeah, I am fine.”
Yunho chuckled, his deep baritone lifting his adams apple up and down his silken caramel throat. You watched as he moved over to his own desk, clicking his large desktop on with a whirr. He was so graceful, so kind, nice lips…
Why couldn’t you have fallen in love with him?
“If you say so Jae…but just in case…” you lifted your eyebrows as he continued, “Go eat something, you look like shit.”
You smiled sarcastically as Yunho lifted himself away from your desk and strolled slowly into the nearby restroom, leaving his computer to boot up.
Knowing that you had to talk to someone started to eat at your insides…a small carnivorous animal that felt your intestines were a good appetizer. But you had promised yourself not to admit your problems to anyone…you could handle this on your own.
You took a deep breath.
Shit. You couldn’t’ do it.
“Yunho.” You called out, waiting for his chime to erupt around the wall. “Yunho? YUNHO!”
A toothbrush in his foamy mouth, Yunho rolled his head around the open door-frame, “Hold yourself man, shit…I’m coming.”
Fucker just had to brush his teeth NOW…when you desperately had a confession emergency. It was like waiting to poop when you had diarrhea. Ridiculous.
A few seconds later, said man walked in through the door, wiping his mouth with the back of a large hand. “What is it Jae?” he asked, sitting down fully into his own computer chair.
“I need to confess something to you.” You started; jumping up to quietly shut the door.
“But you need to promise me that you won’t tell anyone else.”
He nodded, folding his arms across a large chest, “I promise.”
“On Bambi’s grave you promise?” you asked, sitting down once again, facing him over the large expanse of desk to desk.
“You’ve gotta be kidding.” He rolled his eyes, “Okay I swear on Bambi’s grave, now tell me what’s wrong before I start questioning my manhood.”
“Why would you question your manhood?”
He smirked, “Cause only guys like you would talk about their emotions.”
You felt like smacking him, hard, “Oh fuck you. Just shut up and listen.”
Taking a deep sigh, you cupped your face in your hands, the palms feeling sweaty against your clammy white cheeks.
“What would you do,” you begin, trying to calm your shaking limbs, “if you found out the love of your life….doesn’t love you back?”
You peeked up from between your fingers to take in Yunho’s reaction, assuming it would be confused and maybe slightly entertained.
It was.
“So, wait…who are you in love with?” Yunho asked, his long finger pointing strait at your guilty face.
“Promise not to laugh.” You groaned. He nodded in silence. “He’s tall, short brown hair, electric caramel eyes, sweet lips which taste vaguely of honey, and the sexiest bod in all of Korea…so far as I can tell.”
“Uhm…” Yunho stuttered, “Jaejoong, I am flattered, but I really can’t….”
“NOT YOU IDIOT, CHANGMIN!” you shouted, and then whispered, “I’m in love with Shim Choikang Changmin.”
A burst of laughter fell from Yunho’s mouth, his sides shaking uncontrollably, “I knew it wasn’t me, I just wanted a strait answer for once.” He smiled, “Jae, how do you know he doesn’t like you?”
You shrugged, “Maybe because, when I tried to kiss him he looked like he wanted to murder me in my sleep.”
He stretched his face with eyes held wide, “That could pose a problem.”
“You think?” you retorted, the sarcasm dripping so heavily you felt it could probably be seen…you assumed it was around syrup consistency.
“Well, that wouldn’t exactly mean he hates you or doesn’t ‘like’ you per se.” he continued, “It could just mean he is confused and needs more clarification before you really go any further into things.”
You nodded, “We already discussed that once when I followed him to the park.”
Yunho’s eyes widened once more, “You followed him to the park? Jaejoong, come on now that is just creepy!”
“You know what!” You started to shout, soon remembering that this was supposed to be a private conversation, “That night was actually quite rewarding…he admitted to me he felt confused over his sexuality…so I said I would try and seduce him.”
Yunho chuckled, “So why haven’t you started the seducing Casanova?”
You shrugged, the answer heavy on your tongue, like it didn’t want to escape your throat, “Maybe, I feel, like I am invading if I do so.”
“Jaejoong, you won’t be invading if you just don’t think about it too hard. Really, if he asked you to seduce him, then you might as well try.” He explained, looking too much like your old high school councilor…a very hot high school councilor. “But try aiming more for his emotions rather than his dick alright?”
A chuckle bubbled up through your throat; Yunho always knew how to tell it strait, “I am pretty sure I can accomplish that.”
You watched as Yunho smiled, his pearly whites radiating their own fluorescence, “All I can say Jae, is good luck.”
Nodding seemed to be the gesture of the day, “You got it masta’.”
Your legs felt like jelly as you stood to leave, yet Yunho’s voice held you back from the door handle.
“Jaejoong, wait…come here.” He replied, waving his hand, beckoning you to come near.
You smiled sweetly, knowing what he wanted.
Walking slowly up to his side, you bent down and kissed him upon his waiting lips. They were soft like warm butter, and tasted cool like his toothpaste but with a twinge of fresh peach. Your lips slowly twined and opened only slightly, your breaths mingling for the smallest of seconds before you wispily pulled away.
His cheek felt baby soft against your palm as you slid it down to wrap it lightly around the base of his neck. His baby hairs tickled the smooth skin of your upper hand and his smile overtook your senses.
Seriously, why couldn’t you have fallen in love with him?
“Thanks Yunho, I appreciate the help.” You whispered, stroking your thumb slowly down his angular chin. “I’m gonna go win myself a man.”
He chuckled as you pulled away, his hand sliding down your fore-arm, “Good luck.”
You giggled, lingering in the doorway, “I have one last question for you.” You asked.
Yunho swiveled his chair back around to face you, his eyes alight with curiosity.
“Are you sure you aren’t gay, because damn you kiss men really well.”
You could have sworn you had never seen Yunho get so surprised that quickly as you ducked your head quickly around the doorframe to avoid getting hit by a flying stuffed animal.
Smiling to yourself, you trotted happily to the front door, shoving your feet hurriedly into your shoes.
If you were going to seduce Changmin you had better do it perfectly.
No mess ups.

He was going to fall in love with you…if he hadn’t already.


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realitywaiting on November 21st, 2008 03:16 am (UTC)
So....next part NOW!....^^;...please? guh! I love it so much! and jaejoong's pain is just so heartfelt!
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on November 21st, 2008 04:16 am (UTC)
I am so happy you love it! ^-^

Next part will be coming soon, I promise with a cherry on top!
Stephanietheresa_lynne on November 21st, 2008 04:21 am (UTC)
YEAH! GO JAE! Win Changmin for me yourself! Ahem.
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on November 21st, 2008 06:06 am (UTC)
*does the go!Jae dance*
heartless156 on November 21st, 2008 04:32 am (UTC)
Awesome chap. Luv Yunho's reaction when JJ was describing "the love of his love" and of course, JJ reaction after that... it really cracked me up...

oohhh... can't wait to see what Jae will do/try with his seduction scheme... but I wish him luck!!!!
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on November 21st, 2008 06:07 am (UTC)
YAY, I am glad you liked it! Seduction scheme...START!

Thanks for reading!
kimjaeshim on November 21st, 2008 06:59 am (UTC)
Wa. ha-ha. jaejoong and uknow sure make a great pair but jaemin is better. xp oh? jaejoong going to seduce min. haha. bring it on.
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on November 21st, 2008 07:13 am (UTC)
Bring it on indeed!

Thanks for reading!
kogino on November 21st, 2008 07:25 am (UTC)
Yunho is so cute here X3
And yeah Jae, GO for it !!!

I loved the chapter!
Waiting for the ending <3
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on November 21st, 2008 10:43 pm (UTC)
Thanks for reading and commenting!

I am glad you liked it!
紫のチャンミン: Jaejoong at LAXkurogoma on November 21st, 2008 11:45 am (UTC)
oh, changmin is not very likable right now. his reaction to a fellow bandmate he has known for quite abit of time seemed rather ... extreme? even if said bandmate confessed to him.

i wished changmin had seen that yunjae kiss. silly boy.
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on November 21st, 2008 10:44 pm (UTC)
Changmin is being a bit of a bugger in this chapter...but I promise he gets a lot more likeable!

Thanks for reading and commenting!
inkpartyinkparty on November 22nd, 2008 02:57 am (UTC)
next part! next part! next part!
*teary eyes*
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on November 23rd, 2008 12:25 am (UTC)
Okay okay okay!

ansukaansuka on November 22nd, 2008 05:40 pm (UTC)
u know ... i wish changmin could have seen that kiss
could he be jelous about that?
i know he is confused

want the next chap :D
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on November 23rd, 2008 12:25 am (UTC)
*wiggles eyebrows*

Eddie of Eyorqueen_eddie on December 11th, 2008 01:59 am (UTC)
Just read the first 4 parts. Cant wait for part 5.
chagushuchagushu on February 26th, 2010 08:43 pm (UTC)
wonder when i can read final chap *cry*

go go go Perriwynkkle~

i love your fics
aisukidesuaisukidesu on January 28th, 2011 06:16 am (UTC)
luv this~ :)
I'm new reader here >///<
I like this story line
and I hope this story will continue until the end :D

oh right, I couldn't read chap. 3 from this story, could you tell me how to be able to read it?

thanks for the story and sharing it~
I'll be waiting for the next chapter with pleasure <3