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04 August 2008 @ 02:15 pm
Fragile (HoMin)  
Title: Fragile 
Written By: Perriwynkkle
Rating: PG
Pairing: HoMin
Length: 1/1, one-shot
Genre: Angst/Romace
Disclaimer: All the boys belong to SM!

Summary: 
Sometimes I feel alone,
Sometimes I feel like I can never escape my emotions,
I fall and I come undone,
Sometimes I feel a little fragile.

Delta Goodrem - Fragile

Author's Note: cybermuffin18wanted a angsty fic, so here it is, an angsty fic to get all of you teary and reaching for a tissue! (I hope.) I hope you all enjoy this, and look up Delta Goodrem, she is an AMAZING singer from Australia, and her song Fragile inspired me to write this. It is told from the point of view of Changmin. Enjoy everyone!

I never said this is what I wanted.
 
Question is, did I expect anything else of my miserable life?
 
Did I believe all the hurt was going to be forgotten the next day…like a dirty cup in the sink, or a dryer sheet in the hamper?
 
Was I really that hopeful of life?
 
Hopeful that he would come bursting back through that locked door, shoving aside broken glass and fancy hardwood, crawling back on hands and knees towards my huddled frame. The glass and porcelain would cut the soft white skin of his kneecaps, the red staining the wonderful white carpet as he begged forgiveness and alimony, to take him back and cherish him like the angel he already was. For me to cuddle, to cradle, to protect and to love for the rest of our living days, here, in this happy bubble that has now burst.
 
No, I knew he wasn’t coming back. I had scared him; my poor, possessive, innocent self had made him flee for the comfort of other familiar arms. He was never going to arrive once again at the door, never again put his shoes down backwards, never again would he arrange the towels wrong; never again would I see his smiling face. Or feel the softness of his skin, touch the creamy cheeks with the rose undertone, and watch his face contort in heavenly pleasure.
 
The house was cold now; all light had vanished with his loving embrace.
 
My mind seemed like a record skipping, playing the same scene over and over until I no longer wished for another vinyl of memory. It was burned into my skull, at the back of my eyes, where nor hands or the contents of my brain could demolish it. The burden of it weighed on me like a vice pinching a water balloon, soon I would break, shedding my regret and disdain out into the world.
 
Sobs wracked my body, the helpless groans of agony bursting unwanted from my lungs, forced out by unseen vigor and salty tears.
The blankets didn’t warm; they only felt like sandpaper against my arid skin as I sat upon the usually comfortable couch.
I wanted to get up, I wanted to walk, I wanted to drown my sorrows, but I didn’t know how.  Didn’t know how to pull on my boots, grab an umbrella, and drive. It all seemed useless now; no point in caring while there was nothing to fight for.
 
 When he walked out, my world walked out with him. What I lived for decided he didn’t live for me, but that he lived for someone else. He had let me ride along on the carrousel of lies, the bright colors and painted faces all a mirage in the larger theme park.  Once I was off, there was no way to get back on.
 
Never would I be good enough to get back on. 
 
But why couldn’t I be good enough, why?
 
Why couldn’t I be good enough for him?
 
Good enough for him to love me.

FIN

Comments are very very appreciated, and thank you all for reading something that wasn't smut. ^-^ Everything deserves to be read...XD
 
 
Current Mood: lethargiclethargic
Current Music: Fragile - Delta Goodrem
 
 
 
Yuxiyuxo on August 4th, 2008 10:03 pm (UTC)
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What the HELL happened!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

=(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

WHAT HAPPENED. D:!!!!!!!!!

To me, the day Yunho knowingly and willingly walks out would be the day I decided to stop shipping homin. So, never. -_-

...

WHAT HAPPENED!!!! DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

Also, Fragile is seeerrrriiiouuusssssly not a happy song. Lmao. Her voice is very pretty though. 8D

Ugh, love hurts. ;_;

perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on August 5th, 2008 12:10 am (UTC)
what the hell happened is that Yunho was an asshole...LOL!

Fragile is such a gorgeous song, and it is heartbreaking in so many awesome ways...*sigh*

Thanks for reading!
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perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on August 5th, 2008 12:14 am (UTC)
Thank you so much for reading and commenting!

Rose: ChangMincybermuffin18 on August 4th, 2008 10:57 pm (UTC)
T____T <-----That is my face, and yet I'm screaming YAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!! XD Only god knows why. Bahahaha.

BUT I LOVE IT!! And dammit Yuxi stole first on my fic. *grrrrr*

Thankies for writing this. So good, love the angst.
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on August 5th, 2008 12:15 am (UTC)
YAY you like it! *flails in happiness*

It was written for you, so there you have it, loved by the person it was written for! I AM HAPPY!

Thanks for reading!
Stephanie: HoMin // smugtheresa_lynne on August 4th, 2008 11:15 pm (UTC)
*cries*
Nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. ;___;
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on August 5th, 2008 12:15 am (UTC)
heehee, everyone's feelings exactly!
Yunho's Honey Funny Bunnykuro_wolf on December 25th, 2008 05:22 pm (UTC)
Wha? What happened? whose arms? wha?