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16 August 2008 @ 05:30 pm
Inner Workings (1/1)  
Title: Inner Workings
Written By: Perriwynkkle
Rating: PG
Length: 1/1, blurb
Pairing: none
Genre: Comedy
Disclaimer: DBSK is owned by SM Enterainment...sadly.

Summary: Changmin thinks back on the 2008 SM Town Concert, body image, and fans.

Author's Note: I love Changmin so much, I have been his fan since the beginning and I will probably never fall out of this gorgeous man's spell until I, someday,  fall out of the fandom.  I am always curious, as anyone else, about what goes in this man's head...what does he really think about. So I will write small little blurbs about what I think may happen in his immensely attractive head of his. 

Why didn’t they understand that you were different? That you were still only 20 years old and that even after long days in the dance studio, or countless hours pounding iron in the gym, your body was still not up to your harsh demands.
You still had pinches of fat on your harsh hip bones, your legs, though long, were also too skinny, your tummy had abs, but they weren’t as defined as Yunho’s or Jaejoong’s.
You had nice pecs, but they seemed to stick out more than what should be natural for a man, so you hid them, you hid your body, legs, arms, stomach and all so that you’re fans and the watching public would still adore you.
 You could hear them though, those insistent fans, on their blogs and web-forums that they wanted you to catch up, take off your shirt and flaunt what you had to the world.
Yet not only were you not ready for the leap, you didn’t even have the safety harness of confidence to carry out such an extreme task. What good would it do anyway, taking off your clothes and strutting like a show horse on score day? Really, was he being compared, rated, printed off in inkjet to hang on walls or shove in binders as a souvenir of his star-filled youth? To be ogled and gazed at until he didn’t know if they were only staring at him intensely, or if the excess heat was coming from the bright sunlight beating down on your forehead with the intense glare of the stage lamps.
You are a man, not a hunk of steak, so why should they care if they get to see your naked chest or not? It’s not like you were the second coming of Adonis. Nor was taking off your shirt going to amount or equate to anything worth while…unless the fans decided he would now be required to strip to terrible saxophone notes after every Rising Sun performance with dollars shoved into his little tightie-whities. Though you were quite sure that job belonged to a group called the Chippendales, but you were never fluently versed in the deep, meaningful world of male striping entertainment.
But as you watched Yunho, Jaejoong, Junsu and Yoochun all decide that now was the time to use skin as their weapons, you just felt like laughing in their handsome faces. Was the group really that talent-less to where only flesh and sweaty muscles were all they had to offer? Was it really all that simple to gain a bigger fan base? Take off your shirt and gyrate like you’re ready to collapse in orgasmic bliss while girls scream incoherently from the sidelines?
Yet that couldn’t be it, since they rarely ever took off their shirts right? Most of their fans were there for the music…right? They weren’t there for the gelled hair, the perfect face, the flawless bodies, the hip swinging and the teeth chattering pheromones.
They were there for the music, for the base, for the dancing, for the fun, for the delight that was fandom….
Or at least you hoped.

Comments are much appreciated, and I am thankful to all who read it! *huggles*

Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Kuzu Kuzu - Tarkan
realitywaiting on August 17th, 2008 12:43 am (UTC)
Me likey me likey me likey me likey very very much! :D honestly I cannot put into words how much i loved this!
perriwynkkleperriwynkkle on August 17th, 2008 01:03 am (UTC)
Aww, thanks so much!!! *huggles* I am so happy that you liked this blurb! XDD
Stephanietheresa_lynne on August 17th, 2008 03:00 am (UTC)
Someone should have Changmin explain himself on Bigeast again. XDD Then again, the last answer to the "why earrings?" question was very controlled and boring. Oh Changmin, one of very little explanation.

If he just said "I don't want to do it because that's not who I am" I would totally stop obsessing over the fact he doesn't do it like the rest, but until then:

Candy and her prancing ponies :D: Tomo - Lalalala~~~~candy_bosatsu on December 11th, 2008 05:44 pm (UTC)
;;O;; adsdadsd I loved this! Lo~~~~~ved it with all my heart, yus yus yus :Q_____________